Dec 2006: The beginning
Sick of everything and everyone around especially the circumstances surrounding me, I had recently taken to online chatting in those virtual chatrooms. Yahoo messenger had become a life savior and I was enjoying it immensely.There is something fascinating about the virtual...the fictional.You can be what you want to be,what you have dreamed of yourself to be...without having to be real.So there I was part fictional and part reality,having some fun.
And one late evening I log into yahoo chat and start looking randomly for someone interesting to chat with..have some fun and maybe even have an intellectual conversation with.Pops up an IM request name...'Ranveer Singh**'.Mmm....north indian...interesting.Then..the usual beginning phrases...Hi...asl?(age/sex/location)...and we proceed from there.He tells me that he is a Human Resource Manager, and lives in the same city as mine.More interesting!!!!!But till then,it was just that...an online chat,the virtual.We met online often after that as he was always online at late hours,the only hour I could be online.I asked him the reason as he was supposed to be working at that time...and he replied that he worked from home so could chat as and when he wanted. Funnnnn!!!! To me it sounded like a dream come true...to be able to work from home..SERIOUSLY???Me being a physician,I always had to be slogging hard at the hospital with no time for even breaks...forget a 'yahoo chat' break.
SO...we chatted whenever we met online,for not long though coz I was always at a shortage for time.
Oh forgot to mention something here...issues with the 'almost Ex'.I was in a relationship and as I mentioned at the beginning of the passage, the 'circumstances', there were a lot differences going on.Regular fights,arguments,raising of voices and frequent hanging up of phones (long-distance relationship). And so I started discussing my scrw**d relationship with Ranveer Singh(RS), whenever we chatted. And the point came where RS was like 'How can that guy do that to you...if you were mine I would've been so different..blah blah'(you get the hang of it,right??).One evening RS asks me if we can talk on the phone.Now,I dunno if you know about the 'chatting rules' but the foremost ones are never tell your true name and never ever exchange phone numbers.I hadn't told him my true name..it was Nitika, for the record.But I dunno what came into me and I asked him his number instead and said would call him immediately. I do not know till date why I did it...coz it was the first time I was doing something like that.I was a frequent internet chat freak but rules were rules and I broke them.
And I called.And I heard a male husky voice, tinged with a pure North Indian accent on the other side.Pleasantries exchanged and after the usual first-time conversation banter(how are you,who are you,where are you),I proposed to say a goodbye and he mutters the unthinkable...'Don't hang-up'.'Why??'.'It feels nice speaking to you'.Ha!!!!!!Am like 'Dude...you couldn't do any better?Its the worst line used on a girl EVER'.But he insists that indeed its 'feeling' nice so we should continue talking.With a smile on my lips and a feeling of warmth sweeping over me,I manage to close the conversation. Once off the phone, I am reminded of him off and on ,for the next few days.
And a few days later,we talk again.I exchange some poetry with RS that I had once written for my beau.And then one day he asks me for a picture as he still hasn't seen me.This time I am careful.I sent him the picture of a friend and he sent me some pics of himself too.And I guess,I liked what I saw.Handsome face with an equally good body.I could see he was a simple guy.Be it my instincts but I could feel whatever he told me about himself,it was the truth.At least most of it. And off and on I would feel guilty that am lying to him and hiding a lot things.
He disclosed a lot during our talks...the love of his life,who never reciprocated back and how he has been wanting to get over her and move on.And then about his parents,his sisters.I could see that I was getting involved.I was interested in everything he said,and did.And the same could be said about him....but there was something that was stopping me.
My boyfriend(who was still not my ex).I wasn't sure.I didn't know if I should actually make that move.I had been with my boyfriend/fiance for almost 3 and half years at that point of time.I was in a dilemma....huge dilemma.....
